Happy Chinese New yEAr

wish you all the life of happiness and prosperity ..

i think i will no longer write my blog lo..

i changed to write dairy..Lol..


byE

7 - 10 - 2011

4.45 pm
a rainy and stormy weather ..i roughly cut a small piece of my thumb and impossibility i would do it on purpose la...and also this is my first time feeling so bad , really really something wrong..and my mood was 100% then down to 0% all of a sudden............

6.00pm
i reached home and i wonder why my auntie car was parking at my car park ..in my thought they were chit-chating at the house hall..but when i was trying to open the door my auntie told me that my mother slept for 18 hours...~~
my brain blanked for a moment after i rushed to upstairs my Mom was still laying on the bed without any act even i embraced and shout at Her...

6.30pm
my father and my sis back together with a doctor letter and so we were heading to the Hospital , and the time we escort Mom to hospital.. my mind was all blank...

7pm
finally we'd arrived the hospital.. when i get out of the car and i SAW A LOT OF SON OF A BIT STANDING THERE !! and 1 pig came forward asking many foolish stupid question and act like a DOCTOR ! IF THERE WAS NO 1 THERE I WILL SURELY PUNCH HIS PIG HEAD AND I WANT TO CRUSE HIM ! MOTHER FUCKER !! U ALL BITCH ! MALAYSIA B O A BI LA ! PUKIMAK ! THIS IS WHY UR FACE LOOK LIKE DOG ! MOTHER FUCKING SON OF A BITCH !! i know even i write at blog ..u will receive nothing ... but i do CURSE YOU ! even though i shorted-life..

7.15pm
A Miss Doctor step forward ask...blah blah blah...

7.40pm
A Mister Doc told us that your Mom probably stable ..
And he told us Mom ate so much sleeping pill and need to care good care of her..
suddenly a few pictures in my mind ...that is how i treat my Mom...
A son...always back to home..bath..eat...and face computer..everyday do the same thing..every day...
father..mother..what they feel..they only kept in heart..never blame us..they never desire a son will do what to them..they never...
A son..after get salary..just know give them money...but what they want really not about money...what they need just a little attention...but what a son did to them..was facing computer ..when parent greet son a good night and the son face still facing computer..even greeting a good night face to face also lazy..
this is son mean...

don't know since when..i know this will happen one day..because i know you really so hard feeling ...but i really don't know what to do to you ..every time u told me that you are so hard to survive..u know how bad is my feeling ..you only care for yourself ... u are so selfish...
this time i cry so hard for you ..i know u did this b4 than i am..
if second time u did this again..i will never forgive you..never...
Mom ... I LOVE YOU

testing mph ASAP ASAP ASAP

5-1-2011 ( wednesday night )

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9-6-2011 (Thursday night )

harlo, already in June ? that's mean i didn't write this 'daily' for 5month loh?

then what i did at tis few month leh ?

oh . i had resigned from the 'tough job' for 2 month something and got a new's life in 1 month like that , and the salary quite high is also acceptable , the colleague inside, they're really look like a family you knw ??? they even know one family's name.....etc..

At 3rd DAY i work for Xu Yang then they try to offer me to go to taiwan with them, boss told me the company will pay half of the tickets' value and i must pay the rest , but conditions is that i need to sign a contract and term is work for a year at Xu Yang or i will be docked my wage if i can't work for ayears.

Then i rejected...

actually its really worth although i got to work for 2 years there , because many of the company out there does not have the benefit for the NEW FISH...

hmm..maybe about money or the contract bah...

11:11pm and this four number exactly is my sister's birthday...

i usually sleep before tis but today unusual .i am sitting here writting my 'DAILY'..hahah, it no longer a daily right ??...

sigh...would god GoD send me a 'best girl friend' for me and not GIRLFRIEND ok? jz a 'b g f ' cause im really lonely for so long and finally i .....

~~D...~~O~~ you hear me ??God~.~~~~~

I have been trying so hard for the relationship between some of them. ...but some of them really pissed me off

i like the way i am..and i know one thing..i dont need to show.. how i treat and my think..

now..to me...best fren ? hahaha..no good...

so god GOD..

send me a 'bgf' if opportunity

Am i stand a chance ?

no nid 5 mins finished the words i wrote at my book ...hahaha

form 5'sss life

I did remember the scene of our form 5 school's life

and about the feeling of joy and happiness

I did remember how we walked together across the street

and also we shared the things of sorrow and happy things

I did remember the shop where we used to be

even we played badminton or after school we'd get used to have brunch there

I wish that i could turn back the time until the ring bell after school..

I wish that all of us can return to the past even just one day ...

but it doesn't true la diu nei...wake up la

wow..is tis planet getting drown into the earth huh? some day rain heavily some day hot like f*

many innocent trust that race 'emiya?' ( mouth say de 2012 will be domsday) haha..u are so funny neh emiya ..predict that Takashi will own a girl friend in 2015-7-17 better la !!!

emiyaya emi emi ya

every Sunday go for Badminton !! every Sunday !! EVERY Sunday !! please don't miss out !!

surprise

im so appreciate the cake from my company and the wallet man..even i got my own purse..even its belated surprise...im so thankful

round round round

2mr..go walk alone the field lo..hahaaaaaa

nervous versus excited

why does ppl would suicide or think of suicide..

when we have high hopes for our job/study but it doesnt really work out ??

jz like alot of study student out there they are devoting all their time to the examination..

eventually the results they got..beyonds the expectation their wish ..SO..here i'd guess that..the higher hope we wish to ..the more stress may we got..tis is mayb the 1 of the reason lead to suicide..may.b..

the job i interview the day before really freaking me out..i'd really really wish to work there man..not because the job actually..jz because the communication they using there are almost ENGLISH....there is the job i wish for sooo sooo soo very long..very very..long...

but ..mayb caused of my confident..my first time interview at the big building..the first time i speak english with stranger face to face..it make me feel very very tense..acually if i used to speak wherever ..i think it wont be happened...at the circumstance i dun really know what is the difference bettwen nervous and excited...

im waiting yours kindly calls 2mr...17 hours left....i think tonight will be the night i cant sleep well too >< ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

btw

thank my sisters' best

liew hui hwang for the job interview..thank so much